hey guise this is the cutest icon ever amirite?

[terabient]

WOW. brutal week, but the difficult part is finished. Saturday is a ~day off and if the weather is still nice it's BIKE RIDING and DOG WALKING and TOO MUCH SODA for me! (i am lifting my soda ban temporarily because it's been that kind of week.)

ANYWAY

i am feeling like a QUESTION WAR today! i did one like a bajillion years ago and now feels like a good time to recycle it.

THE RULES:

Ask me a question in the comments
I will answer said question and reply with a question just for you!
You answer, and then we repeat steps 1 & 2 until the end of time or we get bored or whatever

Questions can be fannish or personal or weird or whatever, ANYTHING GOES

first one to stop loses

ETA: i just saw this and wanted to do it OKAY

The "What I've always wanted to tell you" Meme

aaaaaand now this shit's goin' public

Comments

Re: going for the softball

[terabient]

EEEEEEEEEEEEEE that sounds terrible :< it was one of my cousins who sent me an invite code to LJ in the first place but!!! i was always super-scared my parents or aunts or uncles would somehow discover me and my SERIOUS 16 YEAR OLD SEEKRITS and end my world.

and i used to be one of those people who would print out terrible fanfiction and read it in bed and my mom found some of it and it was pretty much the most embarrassing thing ever SO i don't do it anymore (also, it's now totally unnecessary with laptops and mobile phones and me not being a super big dope)

anyway! my mind doesn't really separate decades in into early-mid-late years, so i'm not particularly concerned with turning 27. i don't put much importance on birthdays in general so i can't point to one that i was anxious about beforehand - maybe my 22nd because my college graduation was the day before, but that's entirely because of said graduation, not because i was turning 22.

i will probably freak the fuck out when 30 rolls around, though, if only because of the tendency for the women in my family to develop horrific intestinal illnesses around that age. ~FUN!~

ok, question time: Is there anything you liked as a teenager that you are ashamed of now? And there can be no ironic enjoyment/rueful fondness, you must be legitimately upset/disgusted that you once enjoyed this thing.

Re: going for the softball

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OMFG I STARRED THIS IN MY INBOX & STILL MANAGED TO OVERLOOK IT LATER!! I will not lose this game.

Did they really have invite codes that early?? My memory is fuzzier than I thought.

Oh man my brain cannot help but separate things into distinct, almost spatial phases, even if the boundaries are in constant flux. It's probably just overcompensation for my ridiculously fluid sense of time; it's so unreal and untraceable to me that I'm always slightly terrified of it. But I was curious because for some reason everyone around me is having a belated quarter-life crisis and for once I don't feel weird at all about my birthday.

Bleah, intestinal problems are the worst. :(

Anywayyyyyy, shit, that is a difficult question. It's funny because there are some things I was ashamed of then that I'm not ashamed of now. Age has seriously diminished my capacity for shame in that regard, and everything I can think of has transformed into ironic/wistful nostalgia! There are plenty of things I did and said and thought that I'm ashamed of now,
but... ahahaha I think the sad thing is that a lot of what I liked then I still like in some form. I loved a lot of anime(s) that look a whole hell of a lot like animated versions of the dramas I watch now -- hell, I was in love with Hana Yori Dango when I was 15 and now my favorite Japanese drama is... Hana Yori Dango. :( I think part of it is that I really didn't have any interests as a little girl in the country except for playing ~make-believe~ and reading books and watching cartoons, and then I got these little buds of cultural exposure that burst open overnight and defined my interests for the next 12 years or so.

The only thing I'm borderline-ashamed of is my participation in middle_earth, but even then... I dunno. That stupid fucking game is how I met a bunch of people I've now been friends with since the Earth was new, most notably Jae and my other beloved New England resident bammel. It's equal parts open secret, giggly shame, and wistful nostalgia for all of us. (I did not write that wildly inaccurate epilogue, if you happen to click on the accursed thing, but the community is indeed my doing and I would very much like to shank the guy who did write it for using our real first names.)

QUESTION FOR YOUUUUUUUUUUUU:

How well do you hold a grudge? Like, real, lasting grudges, not just temporary flare-ups where you were mad at someone for a while after a fight.