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Bluesky, one of the million twitter clones that popped up after the elon musk buyout, removed their invitation sign-up requirement, so naturally i signed up because trying out new social media sites while being intensely asocial is one of my hobbies now. it's alright i guess; i'm mostly lurking for the most part.

you can also embed bsky posts so i figured why not make a lil' post of Fun Things I Have Found There?

I found out legendary weirdposter of very Old Twitter utilitylimb is back, transitioned, married, and part of a 3 person indie game studio putting out an rpg where you can fuck bears and a whole bunch of other, more abstract entities? I think that's what it's about.

gently setting expectations so no one gets surprised that our game is about a bunch of transsexual misfits doing murders in a wasteland. if you thought it was weird to fuck the bear in bg3 our paths must diverge here.
— nattie winters (utilitylimb) May 8, 2024 at 4:17 PM

anyways great to know they're having a good time!

PSO2 stuff:

Artist Noise (who I vaguely remember meeting once when NPC meetups were still A Thing) had an art request thread and drew my current hyperfixation Varuna ^_^ He is very adorable and has little hearts in his eyes! I love it ♥

Here he is! owo~~
Thank you for requesting Varuna and for joining this event! ♪(´▽｀)

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— Noise💜🖊 (noisebun) Apr 27, 2024 at 4:54 PM

on the other end of the fanart spectrum, i finally got the guts to commission some pin-up style artwork of my husbando from the lovely ThanatosRequiem, who does incredibly hot art of androgynous elfin characters; if you're looking for an artist i HIGHLY RECOMMEND.

Varuna for janejana Thank you for allowing the opportunity to draw this character! 👉👈

#art #digitalart #pso2 #varuna

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— Thanatos 🌹 (thanatosrequiem) Apr 26, 2024 at 9:06 PM

that's all for now. ~~i have decided to leave "best skeets about the kendrick/drake beef" for another entry~~

★ I achieved my goal of finishing A Thing and posting it by the end of October. I had the fic drafted earlier in the month but editing and managing my own anxiety around both writing and sharing it took up, well, the rest of October, lol. But at least i got over it within my self-imposed deadline. Two years ago, I don't think I'd have done that.

★ I have been thinking about where want to spend my internet time this month. I was pretty happy at the beginning of October when I was focused on meeting word count goals and occasionally screaming half-formed opinions into the unseen void that is this blog. I dropped off in the second half of October, and while a lot of that was due to a real-life work emergency, some of it was also due to ...becoming numb to the way fandom activity occurs on Twitter. There is just so much being shoved into your eyeballs at all times that at a certain point you just look at stuff without it making any sort of impact on you. Trying to curate your feed feels like a lost cause, i'm never remotely happy with the results. it's just become easier to not look at my feed at all then try to work it into something i like seeing again.

So I want to use the time and energy i was spending on Twitter shitposts on something actually enjoyable...i just don't know what that entails, yet. it might mean more fandom oriented posts here, it might be trying to make a home over on pillowfort (...eh) it might mean trying to use discord as a community tool instead of ignoring it. i dunno.

★ I committed to finishing a rough draft for at least one more fic and getting through an outline for another at

writethisfanfic. I've never used an outline for fic before, but some of the ideas i'm working out are too complicated for me to just freeform through, especially as I've started to write scenes out-of-sequence. I don't think I'll have anything in a finished, post-worthy state at the end of the month but getting one fic to rough draft status would be great.

Current Music: feryquitous - Noir Specular

★ Most of the children in the classroom I work with are non-verbal. We have one student who is verbal; we know this because he will sing "Uptown Funk" when he needs to go to the bathroom. If we need to convince him to go to the bathroom, we only have to sing or play "Uptown Funk" to get him to go with no complaint. So you'd think that's great, the kiddo LOVES a fun song and it motivates him to do things he needs to, BUT one of the therapists is insisting he shouldn't be using *this* song for motivation and has come up with a "more appropriate" song we should use. frankly it sucks but if the therapist is outlining it in the care plan we're supposed to follow it, sooooooo :/

★ 600 words during last night's writing session which is a high for me! \o/ Getting close to finishing the first draft of the most PWP fic. Which is great as far as reaching goals is concerned, but not so great when that means all the porn with plot will be left, waiting to be...plotted. which, honestly, i don't think i've ever really done lmao. Fanfiction is funny like that.

I've been trying to be gentler with myself as far as setting and meeting daily goals are concerned. The only hard rules I keep are "if you haven't written by 8pm, sit down and write 200 words." i don't always like what i've put down but it's a goal i can hit consistently and i'm more likely to exceed it which makes me feel more productive rather than "you only wrote 300 words? lol bad"

I used to find the actual act of writing very exhausting and unpleasant, but i've learned to be less harsh on myself in the past few years so it feels mildly cathartic now. it's not a bad feeling.

★ On pillowfort i have encountered a bug that makes images hosted on PiFo not display, which makes the whole site a bit difficult to engage with. this and several other factors have made me...less than enthusiastic about really trying to make it work as a personal OR fandom space for me. I still have this vague sense of duty to try and help it succeed, if only because the *idea* of a blog site with tumblr/twitter-like sharing capabilities and dreamwidth-style privacy settings is so appealing--but i'm not sure it's something even i'm looking for any more.

Current Mood: grumpy
Current Music: junior state - levitate