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inescapable
Dec. 4th, 2023 10:09 pmWork has been long and grueling these past two months and it has completely ground away my ability to do basically everything I was hoping to do with regards to fandom besides, idk, grind video games. it's not exactly what i want to do but it's what i have the energy for in the 3 hours I have to myself in the evening (I have been pushing back my "healthy" 9PM bed time to have more time to do things i enjoy. this has not been working out at all.)
trying to get back into things like just writing a sentence in a WIP, scanning a single page for the archive project...but it's not very satisfying. i want to finish something and have people be excited about it. i want to write my self-indulgent crackship slash b/c no one else will. instead i open up a document and stare at it for 40 minutes while my head fills with white noise and anger at the collapsing institutions of public education and health care and then i close the doc and go to bed. i don't really know if things will get any better. they probably won't.
well. 3 weeks until Christmas vacation. hopefully one of the weekends will be mostly free from holiday-related errands and planning. but if not at least i'll have that week of no obligations. that'll be nice.
trying to get back into things like just writing a sentence in a WIP, scanning a single page for the archive project...but it's not very satisfying. i want to finish something and have people be excited about it. i want to write my self-indulgent crackship slash b/c no one else will. instead i open up a document and stare at it for 40 minutes while my head fills with white noise and anger at the collapsing institutions of public education and health care and then i close the doc and go to bed. i don't really know if things will get any better. they probably won't.
well. 3 weeks until Christmas vacation. hopefully one of the weekends will be mostly free from holiday-related errands and planning. but if not at least i'll have that week of no obligations. that'll be nice.
