tag:dreamwidth.org,2009-12-20:466519terabientterabientterabient2023-10-21T05:29:14Ztag:dreamwidth.org,2009-12-20:466519:186843stress2023-10-21T05:29:14Z2023-10-21T05:29:14Zexhaustedpublic0since i never actually said what i was doing for October writing-wise, here's my plan: write at least a scene for as many previously mentioned story concepts as i can, and at the end of the month, post them even if i loathe it. (This is because I always loathe my own writing and will decide not to share anything with anyone, so y'know, trying to get over that.) Since i don't really have the motivation to finish things i figured "at least i can finish <i>scenes,</i> right?"<br /><br />Turns out the answer is <i>"maybe, probably not tho"</i> at least for now. I'm also not sure when I'll be able to squeeze in more writing time in the days remaining this month, so it's quite possible things will end as they did last October, with nothing to show. :')<br /><br /><span class="cut-wrapper"><span style="display: none;" id="span-cuttag___1" class="cuttag"></span><b class="cut-open">( </b><b class="cut-text"><a href="https://terabient.dreamwidth.org/186843.html#cutid1">vague venting</a></b><b class="cut-close"> )</b></span><div style="display: none;" id="div-cuttag___1" aria-live="assertive"></div><br /><br /><img src="https://www.dreamwidth.org/tools/commentcount?user=terabient&ditemid=186843" width="30" height="12" alt="comment count unavailable" style="vertical-align: middle;"/> commentstag:dreamwidth.org,2009-12-20:466519:163494words about words2021-11-04T22:18:39Z2021-11-04T22:18:39Zferyquitous - Noir Specularpublic0★ I achieved my goal of finishing A Thing and posting it by the end of October. I had the fic drafted earlier in the month but editing and managing my own anxiety around both writing and sharing it took up, well, the rest of October, lol. But at least i got over it within my self-imposed deadline. Two years ago, I don't think I'd have done that.<br /><br />★ I have been thinking about where want to spend my internet time this month. I was pretty happy at the beginning of October when I was focused on meeting word count goals and occasionally screaming half-formed opinions into the unseen void that is this blog. I dropped off in the second half of October, and while a lot of that was due to a real-life work emergency, some of it was also due to ...becoming numb to the way fandom activity occurs on Twitter. There is just so much being shoved into your eyeballs at all times that at a certain point you just look at stuff without it making any sort of impact on you. Trying to curate your feed feels like a lost cause, i'm never remotely happy with the results. it's just become easier to not look at my feed at all then try to work it into something i like seeing again. <br /><br />So I want to use the time and energy i <i>was</i> spending on Twitter shitposts on something actually enjoyable...i just don't know what that entails, yet. it might mean more fandom oriented posts here, it might be trying to make a home over on pillowfort (...eh) it might mean trying to use discord as a community tool instead of ignoring it. i dunno.<br /><br />★ I committed to finishing a rough draft for at least one more fic and getting through an outline for another at <span style='white-space: nowrap;'><a href='https://writethisfanfic.dreamwidth.org/profile'><img src='https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/community.png' alt='[community profile] ' width='16' height='16' style='vertical-align: text-bottom; border: 0; padding-right: 1px;' /></a><a href='https://writethisfanfic.dreamwidth.org/'><b>writethisfanfic</b></a></span>. I've never used an outline for fic before, but some of the ideas i'm working out are too complicated for me to just freeform through, especially as I've started to write scenes out-of-sequence. I don't think I'll have anything in a finished, post-worthy state at the end of the month but getting one fic to rough draft status would be great.<br /><br /><img src="https://www.dreamwidth.org/tools/commentcount?user=terabient&ditemid=163494" width="30" height="12" alt="comment count unavailable" style="vertical-align: middle;"/> commentstag:dreamwidth.org,2009-12-20:466519:162502life update 9/282021-09-29T00:37:05Z2021-10-01T21:19:15Zjunior state - levitategrumpypublic0★ Most of the children in the classroom I work with are non-verbal. We have one student who <i>is</i> verbal; we know this because he will sing "Uptown Funk" when he needs to go to the bathroom. If we need to convince him to go to the bathroom, we only have to sing or play "Uptown Funk" to get him to go with no complaint. So you'd think that's great, the kiddo LOVES a fun song and it motivates him to do things he needs to, BUT one of the therapists is insisting he shouldn't be using *this* song for motivation and has come up with a "more appropriate" song we should use. frankly it sucks but if the therapist is outlining it in the care plan we're supposed to follow it, sooooooo :/<br /><br />★ 600 words during last night's writing session which is a high for me! \o/ Getting close to finishing the first draft of the most PWP fic. Which is great as far as reaching goals is concerned, but not so great when that means all the porn <i>with</i> plot will be left, waiting to be...plotted. which, honestly, i don't think i've ever really done lmao. Fanfiction is funny like that.<br /><br />I've been trying to be gentler with myself as far as setting and meeting daily goals are concerned. The only hard rules I keep are "if you haven't written by 8pm, sit down and write 200 words." i don't always like what i've put down but it's a goal i can hit consistently and i'm more likely to exceed it which makes me feel more productive rather than "you only wrote 300 words? lol bad"<br /><br />I used to find the actual act of writing very exhausting and unpleasant, but i've learned to be less harsh on myself in the past few years so it feels mildly cathartic now. it's not a bad feeling.<br /><br />★ On pillowfort i have encountered a bug that makes images hosted on PiFo not display, which makes the whole site a bit difficult to engage with. this and several other factors have made me...less than enthusiastic about really trying to make it work as a personal OR fandom space for me. I still have this vague sense of duty to try and help it succeed, if only because the *idea* of a blog site with tumblr/twitter-like sharing capabilities and dreamwidth-style privacy settings is so appealing--but i'm not sure it's something even i'm looking for any more.<br /><br /><img src="https://www.dreamwidth.org/tools/commentcount?user=terabient&ditemid=162502" width="30" height="12" alt="comment count unavailable" style="vertical-align: middle;"/> commentstag:dreamwidth.org,2009-12-20:466519:161893terabient @ 2021-09-23T17:40:002021-09-23T23:35:56Z2021-09-23T23:35:56ZOverwatch League Playoffs lolpensivepublic0★ Today at school one of the speech therapists said an "unidentified child" had come to the school and needed specialist testing to determine their ability level. I'm guessing she means a parent who didn't do the proper enrollment process and just showed up at school with their kiddo, but the way she was talking it almost sounded like an unknown child had just wandered in, looking for a classroom...I do hope the kiddo ends up where they need to be. It's possible they'll be in our class tomorrow since we have the best (but still short-handed) staff - student ratio at the moment.<br /><br />★ Kinktober update: Hit 5000 words which is not exactly a lot for two weeks of writing, BUT considering how the longest thing i've ever written was just shy of 10,000 words and that took, i think, almost a month? It's pretty good <i>for me.</i> I feel decent about hitting my very modest goal of "finish and post something...anything...in the month of October." 😁<br /><br />And while I won't be able to post something every single day, I think it's possible to have enough to post something each week? Maybe not the first week, but everything after that? I'll have to be more disciplined with the way I use my free time next week, and i don't have much discipline <i>or</i> free time.<br /><br />★ I played a very charming, in-browser puzzle game, <a href="https://bastinus-rex.itch.io/spell-blocks">Spell Blocks</a>. It's based on an entry for METEOR's <a href="https://famicase.com/">My Famicase</a> art show, where people submit their concepts for Famicom game cases. I have a deep fondness for these kinds of puzzle games, and I enjoyed how tricky it can be to build the 4-block spells. Its become a go-to activity if I'm feeling moody and need to do something fun for a few minutes to mentally reset.<br /><br /><img src="https://www.dreamwidth.org/tools/commentcount?user=terabient&ditemid=161893" width="30" height="12" alt="comment count unavailable" style="vertical-align: middle;"/> commentstag:dreamwidth.org,2009-12-20:466519:161216CONTINUED progress????2021-09-17T00:21:02Z2021-09-17T00:21:02ZΛDRIΛNWΛVE - it's good to see you again!!sorepublic0in an effort to re-acquaint myself with actual blogging (as opposed to twitter shitposting) here is a general life update:<br /><br />★ Still working as a nursing aide in the school system. This year i've been assigned to K-4th special needs and the class may be the most precious group i've ever met. all of the children are SO HAPPY to be in school and do classwork and play with each other! ;______; There is one student who loves to walk up to people and say "HIIIIIIIIIII!!!" and one who loves to help her classmates by holding hands and leading them, and one who loves to read and giggles at EVERY joke, and one who loves to sing and another who loves to dance and it's just...very wonderful to work with them during such an awful period in history. <br /><br />★ The bus situation for school is pretty bad, though. Because there are not enough drivers, buses do double routes so sometimes students get out at 2:30PM and other days they get out at 4:00PM...we never have any idea which buses are stuck on double-up routes, either. it just becomes apparent when children are still waiting for their bus at whatever o'clock. :(<br /><br />★ I have Xbox Ultimate Game Pass (via my sister and Xbox's game/sub share feature) but i have not made much use of it. I downloaded Carrion and Boyfriend Dungeon and keep meaning to play them, but with school getting out so late and my daily writing goals, I haven't had much time and even less motivation to play them. And i'm working this weekend, too... orz<br /><br />★ I spent most of 2020 playing the global release of PSO2. I also spent most of 2021 playing the global release of PSO2 and its...sequel? expansion? New Genesis, but having exhaused every thing there is to do in NGS my interest in *playing* PSO2 is waning. I still love the characters from base game, but i don't actually need to like, log in and complete dailies to indulge in that particular pleasure. But I might get around to outlining some meta analysis in the near future.<br /><br />★ Kinktober update: Passed 3000 words last night! I might be able to finish an actual sex scene tonight but who knows...if i do it will probably be the longest sex scene i've written, lol<br /><br /><img src="https://www.dreamwidth.org/tools/commentcount?user=terabient&ditemid=161216" width="30" height="12" alt="comment count unavailable" style="vertical-align: middle;"/> commentstag:dreamwidth.org,2009-12-20:466519:160793progress???2021-09-12T09:59:22Z2021-09-12T10:01:29Zfansleepypublic0In 4 days i've written...about 1500 words... orz <br /><br />That's still better than 0 words in 2 years, so I'm not beating myself up over it...<i>yet.</i> :p<br /><br />I've never been a disciplined writer--even when writing for exchanges or challenges I spent most of my time procrastinating and the last few days trying to cobble together something respectable. So trying to write a little bit every day is...different. Yesterday I managed to write more than the first 3 days combined--hopefully that's not an outlier but a sign that the daily grind approach is having a positive effect.<br /><br />I'm also writing out of chronological order; some years ago, I read some advice along the lines of "start by writing the scenes that are most vivid in your mind, and go on from there" which has always sounded appealing to me. I think one reason yesterday was more productive than earlier was brought about by hopping to something i felt more interested in...I do worry about my ability to stitch these scenes together later on, though. I normally deal with scene transitions by uh, not writing long enough things to require them. x_x <br /><br />I wouldn't say it's been a FUN few days, but it has felt cathartic which is also good<br /><br /><img src="https://www.dreamwidth.org/tools/commentcount?user=terabient&ditemid=160793" width="30" height="12" alt="comment count unavailable" style="vertical-align: middle;"/> commentstag:dreamwidth.org,2009-12-20:466519:160722Kinktober planning2021-09-06T18:04:50Z2021-09-25T13:44:11ZNIKIIE - Duty Friendhopefulpublic0every year i tell myself "this is the year you do kinktober/goretober!!!" and i proceed to do absolutely nothing. but THIS year, i am...still unlikely to write much of anything, BUT. i am at least going through an actual planning phase instead of thinking how nice it would be to write. so there's that.<br /><br />I am using <span style='white-space: nowrap;'><a href='http://twitter.com/kinktober2021'><img src='https://p.dreamwidth.org/e0caa790ec10/-/twitter.com/favicon.ico' alt='[twitter.com profile] ' style='vertical-align: text-bottom; border: 0; padding-right: 1px;' width='16' height='16'/></a><a href='http://twitter.com/kinktober2021'><b>kinktober2021</b></a></span>'s <a href="https://docs.google.com/document/d/1Tt0yr2i6DXgUj5fDBA3RRZkNyUg3AOeXKzwRCXjdppM/">prompt list</a> because it offers multiple prompts to help avoid getting hung up on ones i don't like.<br /><br />i've <b>bolded</b> the kinks i'm most likely to write and used <s>strikethrough</s> for kinks i find squicky or uninteresting. Phantasy Star Online 2 is my current hyperfixation so most of my ideas are focused on that, but i've also had some Blazblue/Persona/Dead or Alive PWPs kicking around my brain for a long time; hopefully i can get those out this year too.<br /><br /><span class="cut-wrapper"><span style="display: none;" id="span-cuttag___1" class="cuttag"></span><b class="cut-open">( </b><b class="cut-text"><a href="https://terabient.dreamwidth.org/160722.html#cutid1">the kinks, and thoughts regarding them</a></b><b class="cut-close"> )</b></span><div style="display: none;" id="div-cuttag___1" aria-live="assertive"></div><br /><br /><br />Will add more ideas if they come to me. tbh i'm setting the bar low for myself: if i make it out of October with literally anything finished and posted publicly, that's a win. \o/<br /><br /><img src="https://www.dreamwidth.org/tools/commentcount?user=terabient&ditemid=160722" width="30" height="12" alt="comment count unavailable" style="vertical-align: middle;"/> commentstag:dreamwidth.org,2009-12-20:466519:160454fanfic meme2021-08-22T04:18:24Z2021-08-22T04:18:24Zair conditioner go brrrrhotpublic0Saw this meme over on Pillowfort and decided to fill it out. Lately I've been stuck in a rut where I want to write but don't actually DO it; I'm trying to self-motivate by reminding myself that writing is, in fact, a thing i'm capable of.<br /><br /><b>1) How many works do you have on AO3?</b><br />After all these years....16, orz<br /><br /><b>2) What's your total AO3 word count?</b><br />35,018<br /><br /><b>3) How many fandoms have you written for and what are they?</b><br />On AO3? Blazblue, Ninja Gaiden/Dead or Alive, Resonance of Fate, Ghost in the Shell, Left 4 Dead, Persona 4/Q, Soulcalibur, and Star Wars; eight total. There's a lot of drabble-length and microfic floating around livejournal/dreamwidth and old kink memes but i'm too lazy to try rounding them up at this point.<br /><br /><br /><b>4) What are your top 5 fics by kudos?</b><br />Accidental Bliss (Persona Q, P4 Protag/P3 Protag)<br />these vices are my service (Persona 4, Adachi/Yu)<br />Merger (Ghost in the Shell, Hacker/Makoto, NON-CON)<br />Stain Your Hands With My Blood (Soulcalibur, Raphael/Siegfried)<br />Play the Angel (Blazblue, Tsubaki/Noel)<br /><br /><b>5) Do you respond to comments, why or why not?</b><br />I am horribly inconsistent about replying--honestly, i'm horribly inconsistent about even *reading* comments in the first place, mostly due to anxiety. I've been trying to chip away at this particular habit but there's still like, a 50% chance I will deal with a comment by pretending it doesn't exist.<br /><br /><b>6) What's the fic you've written with the angstiest ending?</b><br />i think all but 3 of my fics are angsty so not sure what to pick....<br /><br /><b>8) Do you write crossovers? If so what is the craziest one you've written?</b><br />no<br /><br /><b>9) Have you ever received hate on a fic?</b><br />no, but i did have one reader complain about a lack of pussy eating in a femslash fic which honestly is a valid complaint.<br /><br /><b>10) Do you write smut? If so what kind?</b><br />yes, the...uh...uncomfortable kind?<br /><br /><b>11) Have you ever had a fic stolen?</b><br />no<br /><br /><b>12) Have you ever had a fic translated?</b><br />no. i did have someone draw a whole comic from one of my first fics (back when fanfiction.net was the only major fic archive) which is....not at all the same, but pretty neat, right?<br /><br /><b>13) Have you ever co-written a fic before?</b><br />no<br /><br /><b>14) What's your all time favorite ship?</b><br />I keep going back to Raphael/Siegfried so i guess this rarepair that pretty much only i write is The One <br /><br /><b>15) What's a WIP that you want to finish but don't think you ever will?</b><br />all of my WIPs are things i no longer want to finish due to lost interest. That's kinda why they're WIPs in the first place (the 2nd place is that most of what i write is microfic one-shots). WHOOPS<br /><br /><b>16) What are your writing strengths?</b><br />I think i'm pretty decent at conveying internal conflicts/mixed emotions and describing tactile sensations.<br /><br /><b>17) What are your writing weaknesses?</b><br />the actual act of sitting down and putting words down orz<br /><br /><b>18) What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?</b><br />I think it's difficult to do well, and very easy to fuck up and break immersion, so I avoid it. If the character in question has a habit of using more than one language in their canon dialogue I use that as a guide, but I think adding phrases that a multilingual character *doesn't* use in canon is ahh...not a great idea?<br /><br /><b>19) What was the first fandom you wrote for?</b><br />Skies of Arcadia, back when I was still in high school. I used to ask my friends to read/review it at lunch lol :')<br /><br /><b>20) What's your favorite fic you've written?</b><br />I'm actually pretty happy with how Accidental Bliss turned out. Like, I wish I could write more unabashedly PWP fic lol. I'm usually dissatisfied with my """serious""" fic after writing it.<br /><br /><img src="https://www.dreamwidth.org/tools/commentcount?user=terabient&ditemid=160454" width="30" height="12" alt="comment count unavailable" style="vertical-align: middle;"/> commentstag:dreamwidth.org,2009-12-20:466519:157950are tags an advertisement or a warning2019-01-26T05:38:51Z2019-01-26T05:38:51Zpublic1I've been cleaning up my A03 profile, summaries, and content tags, and I'm having a hard time tagging my M-rated fic. I'm generally someone who under-tags, as I've always felt that having too many tags is frustrating to readers. But undertagging means a reader has less control when it comes to content they want to avoid, so I'm trying to find a happy medium between over- and undertagging. Help me out, flist?<br /><br /><div><a href="https://www.dreamwidth.org/poll/?id=21200">View Poll: AO3 Tag Etiquette</a></div><br /><br />Related, how useful do you find style tags--"present tense" "drabble format" "second-person POV" etc? Is it something you appreciate when provided, or do you not notice/ignore it?<br /><br />anyway, meme time.<br /><br />Taken from tumblr: <i>For ten days, I post an image from a video game that has impacted me without a single explanation and nominate somebody to take the challenge.</i><br /><br /><font size="3"><b>Ecco the Dolphin: Defender of the Future</b></font><br /><img src="https://terabient.dreamwidth.org/file/5975.png"><br /><br />i've never beaten this game, or any Ecco game for that matter, despite playing all of them. <s>okay, not Ecco Junior.</s><br /><br />today's tag: <span style='white-space: nowrap;'><a href='https://rutato.dreamwidth.org/profile'><img src='https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png' alt='[personal profile] ' width='17' height='17' style='vertical-align: text-bottom; border: 0; padding-right: 1px;' /></a><a href='https://rutato.dreamwidth.org/'><b>rutato</b></a></span> who i don't think visits here anymore, but 🤷<br /><br /><img src="https://www.dreamwidth.org/tools/commentcount?user=terabient&ditemid=157950" width="30" height="12" alt="comment count unavailable" style="vertical-align: middle;"/> commentstag:dreamwidth.org,2009-12-20:466519:153582Pumpkin spice season doesn't end until January2018-11-28T04:54:14Z2018-11-28T07:28:59ZEcco the Dolphin - Hanging Waterscoldpublic0★ I finished up a bunch of paperwork for job related stuff today, then started studying for my phlebotomy class tomorrow...and ended up falling asleep for two hours W H O O P S. I got a call from the pharmacy for a refilled prescription during that time frame as well, so I started errands at, oh, 8:30 this evening. I also managed to get all the way to the post office before realizing I'd left the mail at home, so I had to drive back home then back to the post office. Also also, some of the main roads were washed out from the melting snowbanks and rain today, so I had to take several detours each way. <br /><br />Then, because I'm a basic bitch at heart, I stopped at a Dunkin' Donuts to get a pumpkin spice coffee but they had closed, like, 10 minutes before I got there. I probably should have gone straight home after that, but I felt like I had to get SOMETHING I wanted but didn't really need tonight so I drove 5 miles down the road to a <i>different</i> Dunkin' Donuts that I knew would be open because I used to stop by there when I had an overnight shift in the area. Then it took 15 minutes to get home because of the aforementioned water issue. I might not be making the best life decisions right now...but at least the coffee was nice and I had a lot of it.<br /><br />★ Game stuff: I did part of the tutorial in Blazblue Cross Tag Battle, and even though it uses a 4 button layout with only two of those buttons meant for attacking (the other two are dedicated to tag-related stuff) I still found it difficult to grasp beyond, like, the basics of autocombo and dedicated instant overhead moves. ~_~ <br /><br />I don't expect much from the story and nothing in the prologue suggests that I was wrong in this assumption, but I am glad to hear the dub voices for Blazblue again. I disliked Centralfiction's story and I think some of that is because I had to read its' vast amounts of stupid exposition instead of listening to it. Like it's a bit easier to tolerate walls of boring text when someone is passionately trying to sell it to you. And I've always preferred Noel's dub voice.<br /><br />I played a few rounds of Overwatch and Soulcalibur VI. Nothing particularly exciting happened in Overwatch although I had a few games where dudes were mildly toxic about me picking Ashe >:| Also I headshot a blinking Tracer!!!, so now I have to quit Overwatch forever because I'm sure that will be my peak. <br /><br />I was just grinding out the "play x number of matches online" type achievements in SCVI and ended up with an exactly 50% winrate, a rank up and a ragequit. Yay? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯<br /><br />★ I've been...<i>thinking</i> about writing fic lately. Which doesn't amount to much, I suppose, but given that I haven't considered fic for months (years?) until Kinktober this year, it's a significant change for *me,* lol. It mostly boils down to no one writing the porn I want to read but tbh that's always been my single greatest writing motivator.<br /><br />wrt writing explicit material, I remember reading a tweet somewhere that suggested starting with the sex scene first which sounds like maybe a good idea? I often give up writing a thing because I lose motivation to get to 'the good part' which is always the strongest scene in my mind when I'm starting...so maybe starting at the part that is most interesting gives enough motivation to slog through the rest of the fic. Maybe something to try for next month.<br /><br /><img src="https://www.dreamwidth.org/tools/commentcount?user=terabient&ditemid=153582" width="30" height="12" alt="comment count unavailable" style="vertical-align: middle;"/> commentstag:dreamwidth.org,2009-12-20:466519:147209checklist for daily posting2018-11-05T04:59:20Z2018-11-09T04:54:53Zpublic2to be honest i almost decided <i>not</i> to do November blog posting month this year, as I've never been particularly pleased with the quality of my daily posts. But, it's been literal years since I've regularly blogged at this point, and at this point posting short/low-effort posts daily is better than constantly telling myself that I should post more, then never actually do it.<br /><br />some topics i'm want to talk about:<br /><br />-Overwatch in general, but probably more game/meta focused stuff because playing and watching other people play is how I experience it the most.<br /><br />-general trend in fighting games to have more substantial single-player and story material in particular<br /><br />-the inevitable and awful trend of microtransactions and gambling mechanics in an increasing variety of games<br /><br />-drabbles?<br /><br /><img src="https://www.dreamwidth.org/tools/commentcount?user=terabient&ditemid=147209" width="30" height="12" alt="comment count unavailable" style="vertical-align: middle;"/> commentstag:dreamwidth.org,2009-12-20:466519:133418dead community etiquette2015-03-31T04:54:29Z2015-03-31T04:54:29Zconfusedpublic0surfacing from the depths to ask a question:<br /><br />there's an inactive fic challenge community that i want to post to--like, i finished the community challenge (well, one of them) and i could post the fic whenever, but since there are no mods checking claim requests i can't have my request approved.<br /><br />BUT i do have posting access to the community, so i technically don't need mod approval to post the finished fic. is...is that okay, or should i not post to the community and just keep it to my personal accounts? or should i try getting in touch with the mods...? i dunno.<br /><br /><s>it's not like it's especially scintillating fic that MUST BE SHARED, i just want to get back in the habit of posting stuff i've written publicly, even it's kinda meh</s><br /><br /><img src="https://www.dreamwidth.org/tools/commentcount?user=terabient&ditemid=133418" width="30" height="12" alt="comment count unavailable" style="vertical-align: middle;"/> commentstag:dreamwidth.org,2009-12-20:466519:111189microfic porn requests?2012-07-25T01:33:24Z2012-07-26T08:13:40ZJanelle Monae - Tightropesleepypublic5I have been absolutely terrible when it comes to writing fandom things lately, especially kinky/porny things. Flist, if you would be so kind to help me out?<br /><br /><b>Leave a comment with a character/pairing/moresome, and a kink, and I will write up to 100 words** for that prompt.</b><br /><br /><span class="cut-wrapper"><span style="display: none;" id="span-cuttag___1" class="cuttag"></span><b class="cut-open">( </b><b class="cut-text"><a href="https://terabient.dreamwidth.org/111189.html#cutid1">Fandoms I can write for</a></b><b class="cut-close"> )</b></span><div style="display: none;" id="div-cuttag___1" aria-live="assertive"></div><br /><br />Thanks~<br /><br /><img src="https://www.dreamwidth.org/tools/commentcount?user=terabient&ditemid=111189" width="30" height="12" alt="comment count unavailable" style="vertical-align: middle;"/> commentstag:dreamwidth.org,2009-12-20:466519:107634Walking Dead is a really hard show to like2012-03-07T05:29:21Z2012-03-07T05:29:21ZErykah Badu - Penitentiary Philosophycautiously optimisticpublic0<span class="cut-wrapper"><span style="display: none;" id="span-cuttag___1" class="cuttag"></span><b class="cut-open">( </b><b class="cut-text"><a href="https://terabient.dreamwidth.org/107634.html#cutid1">Spoilers for TWD: Judge, Jury, Executioner</a></b><b class="cut-close"> )</b></span><div style="display: none;" id="div-cuttag___1" aria-live="assertive"></div><br /><br />Totally unrelated: This month I signed up for <span style='white-space: nowrap;'><a href='https://writethisfanfic.dreamwidth.org/profile'><img src='https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/community.png' alt='[community profile] ' width='16' height='16' style='vertical-align: text-bottom; border: 0; padding-right: 1px;' /></a><a href='https://writethisfanfic.dreamwidth.org/'><b>writethisfanfic</b></a></span> - basically it's a motivation comm. where you can get some outside help for reaching fanfic goals, and I have two I want to finish for <span style='white-space: nowrap;'><a href='https://bloodyvalentine.dreamwidth.org/profile'><img src='https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/community.png' alt='[community profile] ' width='16' height='16' style='vertical-align: text-bottom; border: 0; padding-right: 1px;' /></a><a href='https://bloodyvalentine.dreamwidth.org/'><b>bloodyvalentine</b></a></span> by the end of the month. It has been going pretty well, all things considered. I haven't been averaging a lot of words, but I've managed to finish the first draft for one fic (still needs a TON of editing, though) and started on the second today. And I haven't missed a day, which is HUUUUUGE for me. :o I don't know if I can keep it up for the whole month, but honestly, just being able to work on fic for a whole week is kind of a big deal for me. XD<br /><br /><img src="https://www.dreamwidth.org/tools/commentcount?user=terabient&ditemid=107634" width="30" height="12" alt="comment count unavailable" style="vertical-align: middle;"/> commentstag:dreamwidth.org,2009-12-20:466519:19774NaBloPoMo Day 21: Critique2011-11-22T03:44:25Z2011-11-22T03:45:51ZNABEMON - Cage of Timeexhaustedpublic0Ugh. I have a headache from sitting in an auto garage for two hours and I started cooking my first meal of the day at 8:30pm. <br /><br />:[<br /><br />In not annoying whiny girl news, a friend pointed me in the direction of a writing program called <a href="http://www.autocrit.com/index.php">Autocrit</a>; it's essentially an automated beta reader. I've never made use of a beta before (too shy and paranoid, lol) so I was curious to see if this program would be of any use.<br /><br /><span class="cut-wrapper"><span style="display: none;" id="span-cuttag___1" class="cuttag"></span><b class="cut-open">( </b><b class="cut-text"><a href="https://terabient.dreamwidth.org/19774.html#cutid1">And it turned out to be quite helpful</a></b><b class="cut-close"> )</b></span><div style="display: none;" id="div-cuttag___1" aria-live="assertive"></div><br /><br />I would suggest trying it just for fun/curiosity's sake. <s>and if you try the full version tell me what it's like o3o</s><br /><br /><img src="https://www.dreamwidth.org/tools/commentcount?user=terabient&ditemid=19774" width="30" height="12" alt="comment count unavailable" style="vertical-align: middle;"/> commentstag:dreamwidth.org,2009-12-20:466519:15411NaBloPoMo Day 4: Pen vs Processor2011-11-05T02:42:54Z2011-11-05T02:42:54ZEnd of Eternity - Final Curtaincoldpublic2<b>When you are writing, do you prefer to use a pen or a computer?</b><br /><br />I am absolutely in love with pen-and-paper writing, and always will be. I have 3 notebooks I currently use for writing - a personal journal I got from my grandmother and two that I use for writing fiction and occasionally blog posts when I know I won't have internet or computer access for some time.<br /><br />I almost always end up writing my first drafts (and sometimes second and third) on paper. I'm not sure if students are taught how to write in a way that makes drafts and corrections easier anymore, now that word processors are so ubiquitous, but I was taught to skip every other line when writing so that there would be plenty of free space for corrections or notes. So, I end up going through a lot of pages even for relatively short pieces. I feel a little guilty about using up so much paper, though I do make an effort to buy notebooks made out of recycled product whenever possible. <br /><br />On that note...in college, somebody gave me a <a href="http://www.overstock.com/Worldstock-Fair-Trade/Handcrafted-Banana-Leaf-and-Bamboo-Paper-Notebook-Indonesia/4447137/product.html">banana leaf & bamboo paper notebook</a>...it looked awesome, but actually writing on it was rather problematic. After filling it up I didn't feel the need to replace it.<br /><br />I didn't get a computer for personal use until college, and I think that might have had an impact on how I approach composition today. I have <i>the worst</i> time trying to write initial drafts on the computer - I need a written copy to work off of. I also find something really intimidating about a big empty screen or entry box, while a blank piece of paper just seems to invite me to fill it up with words. Granted, those words and sentences are often borderline incoherent, but then, that's how most initial drafts turn out, right? :p<br /><br />The other perk I find with pen-and-paper is the lack of internet and other computer related distractions. I know there are lots of programs out there now for writers to block internet access while writing, and programs that restrict a person's ability to access non-writing related programs until they hit a certain quota. When I write on paper, I have fewer problems resisting distractions, since they aren't as easily accessible. <br /><br />That being said, I do find I become more drowsy while writing on paper...usually because I am in a very comfortable chair, couch or bed while doing so. Heh.<br /><br />That's all for today~ I think tomorrow I'm going to dork out hardcore and post a lot of video game related stuff which I HOPE will be a little more interesting than reading about power outages and pens & notebooks. :p<br /><br /><img src="https://www.dreamwidth.org/tools/commentcount?user=terabient&ditemid=15411" width="30" height="12" alt="comment count unavailable" style="vertical-align: middle;"/> commentstag:dreamwidth.org,2009-12-20:466519:15110NaBloPoMo Day 3: Music2011-11-04T01:34:12Z2011-11-04T01:34:12ZEnd of Eternity - Chandelier (Night)public0Internet access was down <i>again</i> today, from about 7am until 8pm. The local news reports also mentioned that people were experiencing sporadic power outages, apparently because there were some cases where already repaired power lines had to be temporarily disconnected in order to fix other ones...?<br /><br />I honestly think that at this point, Snoctober has been handled worse than the 2010 ice storm, and in the ice storm <i>everything was covered in thick unmelting ice.</i> I think this may be the time I can use the phrase 'epic failure' without it being hyperbolic in the least. :P<br /><br />Also, trying to find a way around the power and internet issues has made NaBloPoMo less fun than it could be. At least things are becoming more stable now...anyway, it's PROMPTIEM!<br /><br /><b>Can you listen to music and write?</b><br /><br />Hmmm, it depends on both the music and what I'm trying to write. If I'm writing something like a blog post or journal entry (my SUPERSEEKRIT handwritten journal, I mean :) then I honestly need music to kind of um...I guess entice me to stay in one place? If I don't have some music in the background, it's much easier for me to get distracted by something else and wander off. Music has a way of making a little safe bubble for me where I can get informal writing done. <br /><br />However, when I try to write fiction, or an essay, or any sort of formal composition, I have to work in silence. I have tried writing with music on but I find that instead of keeping me on task, the music becomes a distraction instead - especially if lyrics are involved. Occasionally, when I have a specific mood I hope to achieve, I will put on instrumental music that evokes the ideal mood, but never anything with lyrics.<br /><br />I can't think of a specific thing I've written that came about as a response to lyrics or music in general, although I wouldn't be surprised to find that I have written a story based on a song and have just forgotten it. x_x<br /><br /><b>What song did you hear today?</b><br /><br />Well. Um. I would think that most people, myself included, have heard more than one song today... :P<br /><br />But right now I'm listening to this track from the game <i>Resonance of Fate</i>. It seems particularly suited to chilly, clear nights (the name may have something to do with it):<br /><br /><iframe width="560" height="315" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/RkBxD8OxlPI" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen="allowfullscreen"></iframe><br /><br /><img src="https://www.dreamwidth.org/tools/commentcount?user=terabient&ditemid=15110" width="30" height="12" alt="comment count unavailable" style="vertical-align: middle;"/> commentstag:dreamwidth.org,2009-12-20:466519:7592fic stuff2011-05-25T11:44:47Z2018-11-29T06:12:19Zmelancholypublic3The good news about my <span style='white-space: nowrap;'><a href='https://hardmode.dreamwidth.org/profile'><img src='https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/community.png' alt='[community profile] ' width='16' height='16' style='vertical-align: text-bottom; border: 0; padding-right: 1px;' /></a><a href='https://hardmode.dreamwidth.org/'><b>hardmode</b></a></span> fic: I'm well over the 10,000 word requirement. Woo!<br /><br />The bad news: it's nowhere NEAR finished. PROBABLY I shouldn't have planned two major plotlines, each one involving four major characters, with one taking place in a fictional city in a country I've never been in and have had to research extensively just so I don't fall flat on my face and portray it in an embarrassing and offensively stereotypical way. <br /><br />I made the decision to work on each plotline separately for the most part, which was maybe not the best idea? At this point, I'm almost finished with what I've affectionately dubbed the 'Sausage and Monster Fest' plot, while the plotline that has all the ladies and city-wide gunfights and zombies and quarantines has just a few scattered scenes here and there. So there's a lot of material, but it's completely incoherent as a whole. OH DEAR.<br /><br />If push comes to shove, I mightmight<i>might</i> be able to clear out the super-fun, super-not-worked on plotline out and submit the (mostly) finished plot by the deadline. But naturally that would suck for a few reasons. It's not like you can completely remove a major plotline without creating some plot holes and the nagging sense that somewhere, but definitely not in story the reader is reading, a different, totally rockin' story is happening. <br /><br />Plus, as one may have already deduced, Sausage and Monster Fest plot has a lot of dudes in it. And monsters. And bad puns, but mostly dudes, while Super-Fun plot is full of girls with guns kicking ass and taking names and also delivering some moral platitudes about the largely non-existent issue of biological weapon development. The idea of dropping a female-centric plot for a guys beatin' up baddies story is something I <i>really don't want to do.</i> At the same time, I'd feel bad about signing up for a big bang and not being able to finish the first part of the challenge, namely writing and sending in a fic for beta reading.<br /><br />I signed up for big bangs this year to see if I could actually produce a whole lot of creative writing by a deadline and to see what working with a beta reader is like. Well, the potential for getting custom-made art and/or a fanmix is nice too. But mostly I was curious about the beta reading aspect because I've never used one and I'm too shy to go about finding one myself. ^^;<br /><br />Anyway, I don't know what I'll end up doing. My gut feeling is to drop from the challenge and work on the fic on my own time so I'll be able to write about everything I wanted to, and try again next year, but I dunno. Any suggestions, flist?<br /><br />To wrap things up, here's a writing-ish meme that's been making the rounds for awhile. It's pretty relevant to my situation at the moment, hahahaha<br /><br /><b><i>Simply put, make a list of all file names for any WIPs you have on your computer.</i></b><br /><br /><span class="cut-wrapper"><span style="display: none;" id="span-cuttag___1" class="cuttag"></span><b class="cut-open">( </b><b class="cut-text"><a href="https://terabient.dreamwidth.org/7592.html#cutid1">The list</a></b><b class="cut-close"> )</b></span><div style="display: none;" id="div-cuttag___1" aria-live="assertive"></div><br /><br />If my terribly boring filenames pique your interest, you can ask for a summary or excerpt or whatever you want about them in the comments~<br /><br /><img src="https://www.dreamwidth.org/tools/commentcount?user=terabient&ditemid=7592" width="30" height="12" alt="comment count unavailable" style="vertical-align: middle;"/> comments